I’m a Muslim girl. The worst one apparently, and I’ve had sex before marriage, including anal. I am so sorry for doing it, and I know I can’t change it back. But I regret it so much, I started praying 5 times a day, like I should. I’m also trying to learn to read to Koran. And I’m saving up money to go to Hadj and ask for forgiveness there. I’m so terrified I’ll burn in hell forever. I want to go to heaven to meet out lovely prophet (saw). But I’m afraid I messed it up. I’m truly so sorry, I regret it so much, and I ask Almighty Allah to forgive me, every day. But I’m afraid he won’t, even though he is the most forgiving. I can’t think straight anymore, and I cry about it every time I think about it. I’m trying to become a better Muslim. But what if that’s not enough. Another bad thing about me, is that I have tattoos. I heard they’re makruh, instead of haram. So I thought it would be okay. (My younger sister’s friend’s father is Imam, and he said it’s Makruh. His son (my sister’s friend), is going to get one on his back). Can someone please help me out? I am truly sorry for what I have done. And I would do anything to make it up with Allah.